Today I had a very interesting slice of pizza:

Sliced apples and pears on it with brown sugar and cinnamon, and finished with a dusting of powdered sugar. Delicious! The crust was nice and thin and crispy, which was a lovely contrast to the tender, melt on your tongue, fruit.

On another note, I'm getting my ass handed to me by my friend's 5x5 rubiks cube. Merely holding it in my hand makes me feel dumb. :P ok not really, actually it makes me feel ultra nerdly, especially when I walk around in public with it.. but yah.. I need a new technique. Applying 3x3 techniques to the 5x5 only goes so far.. sigh. will have to work on it with Jon some more. funny how it's owning both of us. @_@

Hello hello,

man it's been such a long week.. @_@ but it's finally over! sorta.. not that the list of things to do ever gets any shorter, ha, but yah..

so, I put in my two weeks notice at work on wednesday.. yay. it was time to move on. but maybe in the future I'll be back to take on the position of coordinator... but I'll decide on that later. :)

Happy Lunar New Year!! ^_^

so my japanese class is going well and I'm so excited! Though it's pretty intense and fast-paced it's actually a lot of fun, and I'm excited about the oral exam on monday, weird, i know; but my partner Lena and I have this really adorable skit written, and it's funny and cute, if not a bit stereotypical, but hey, gotta work with what you have, and we only know certain grammatical patterns and vocabulary so far so yah.. but haha it looks to be fun times monday morning! :)


haha funny story: wednesday night I was working the coffee bar, and there's this one couple who sometimes comes in the girl looks to be 19-21ish and is asian, and is always very dressed up and fashionable and the guy is really old, maybe like 65+  and they walk in together side by side, and as usual, everyone stares (but tries to pretend that they aren't staring) and speculate about whether or not theyre actually together, or if they have some other kind of relationship. It's pretty busy at this time, so I'm walking thru the place with a tray of free samples. I picked the rice krispies to distribute because they're really delicious and one of the morning leads makes them fresh every day. and I offer some to this couple and they look at me oddly, take some and I'm on my way.but about half an hour later, they come up to the coffee bar and order a couple drinks, and the man just has this huge smile on his face and is raving about how delicious the samples were, and how he was soooo surprised because they don't look nearly that tasty. and he asks me if little munchkins made them. O_o?! HAHAHA! wow.. I kind of shocked because the gentleman seemed pretty nice, which was weird because he usually walks around and peers at everything with a look of disgust on his face and he wrinkles his nose. The girl seemed nice too, and while they were waiting for their coffee, they kind of joked around with each other and poked each other and laughed, and it was kind of interesting to watch. @_@


O_o wow.. has anyone checked out the new macbook Air?!  HOLY CRAP IT'S THIN! ridiculously so. wah.. i want one. time to go research it ^_^ la la..

that's all for now,

cheers!

so... its been a long time since i updated..

part of the reason is that i use my computer a lot less than i used to- this is sorta good because i can actually go out and do stuff now, rather than sit around and waste time on my computer whenever i take breaks from studying and it means i've learned to manage my time much better ^_^(which is the other reason i dont use the comp so much.. not wasting so much time) however.. it's bad because it means i'm shite at keeping in touch with so many people that mean so much to me and i miss people so much that i get really sad and feel lonely..

kind of like the way i'm feeling right now

of course i really like it here, the campus is beautiful, some people are really great, i really like my professors and the classes themselves, i'm doing well in classes and all but sometimes i still feel really antisocial and hide in my room

for instance, right now, its 1:30am and i'm sitting alone in my room mostly in the dark, with a single small lamp on, listening to slow, sorta sad/nostalgic/etc music like I Believe (My Sassy Girl theme song), Goodbye my Lover (James Blunt, btw i really dislike his voice but the song is really good), and When It All Falls Apart (The Veronicas)  ..... which is all very ironic considering i'm happy here. really. but at the same time, i miss Jen, adopted siblings, and other good friends soo much... and i cant even say i'll see you all over xmas because most of you don't live in irvine. -_- i dont kno WHEN i'll see you, and that is very depressing in itself.

change.

it has to happen and yet sometimes, most of the time in fact, i wish it didnt. i hate it when things are going so well and then things change. it makes me feel so helpless sometimes.

and i wonder if i'm just being cynical and pessimistic when i think about how helpless humans really are in some senses...

we're so supposed to be so "powerful" because we can think and all, and yet.. we're so vulnerable at the same time. so much for being at the top of the food chain. it is hella easy to rip human skin. i would know, as i manage to bump and scrape and otherwise accidentally injure myself on a daily basis.

and then there is the fact that we're so.. bound by stuff like "human nature" like its human nature for us to want to better ourselves or our status => we want happiness and comfort, etc etc which in turns means having the capability to provide these things for ourselves which means having the power/wealth/social status/etc etc which in the end, translates to one thing: greed. humans are greedy. MAYBE i'm just being cynical. MAYBE i'm jumping to conclusions. after all.. wanting a better life and being greedy isnt the same thing. greed implies a kind of extremity, wanting TOO MUCH comfort or luxury or whatever.. however.. in wanting a better situation, we essentially want more. always more. the grass is always greener on the other side. we want what we cant have. etc etc. are they just cliches? somehow, i think not.

how bout technology? perhaps it's just me, but several times throughout the years, i've come to see technology as evidence of man's innate laziness. technology improves things. this is true, but how does it really improve? it improves our lives by saving time, or work. humans have to do less work, and we get more time to be lazy. don't get me wrong, i'm so not complaining. i love my stuff (alas, i'm vain AND materialistic. sort of..) but i can't help thinking that humans (at least lost of them in society today) are way more bad than good. tis very depressing.

on a different note..

is it weird that almost all of my very close friends have been adopted in some way or another? do i feel like i need to give some kind of role to people? hmm... i dont think i do... i think when i start interacting with close friends the way i would with a sibling, i adopt them as such. is this wrong? hmm.. i never really thought much about it until now.. hmm..